I have to apologize in advance. This is not my typical happy-go-lucky, everything-is-wonderful post. I am writing this to tell you all a little bit of what’s been going on and to ask for prayer. We really, really need prayer for peace, joy, and hope.
As many of you know, my husband has been gone for work since the beginning of September. It’s been a long 5 months, but we’ve only got three more weeks to go! Since he left, many things have happened which have rocked our world.
First, I drove from Colorado to North Carolina with my two daughters (Marlowe, 4, and Fletcher, 2), a dog named Charlie, and a cat named Eddie. And I can’t forget my mom, who flew from NC in order to drive back with us and help me out! We are in NC until mid-February, which is when I will be driving back to CO (hopefully I don’t go into labor on the way, because as of this past Tuesday, I am 33 weeks along).
Second, Charlie was the victim of a hit-and-run just outside my parents house in October. It was quite traumatic, driving him to the vet while he was bleeding everywhere in the car. I was devastated when we found out how extensive his injuries were; making the decision to put him to sleep was very difficult. Telling my husband over FaceTime was also very difficult. Shawn really loved Charlie, and he probably won’t feel the full effects of his buddy’s death until he returns home.
Third, we received news not too long after Charlie’s death that one of our friends also died unexpectedly. I was able to fly back to Colorado for the memorial service and funeral at the end of November – it was good to see my sweet friends and give the family hugs, but I wish it was under different circumstances. This is still affecting us all, so please continue to pray for his wife and two young sons.
Fourth, my wonderful mother-in-law was recently diagnosed with cancer. This was a huge shock, and we are still reeling from the news. Please join us in praying for peace and joy for my parents-in-law, as well as a full recovery from all her surgeries and chemo.
Fifth, we found out that one of our precious son’s kidneys is underdeveloped. Shawn and I made a decision together that this wasn’t something we needed to worry about. God has our son in His hands, and He is capable of healing him. Although this news almost threw me right over the edge, I was able to take a few deep breaths and realize that many people lead normal lives with just one kidney.
Sixth, my husband told me a few weeks ago that we won’t be moving from Colorado anytime soon, like we’d originally thought. The matter is complicated, so here’s what it boils down to: Shawn will most likely have to go away again. Although it won’t be six months this time, we are still looking at three-and-a-half months. I will remain in CO while he’s gone; traveling to NC is out of the question because our oldest child will be going to Kindergarten next year. This isn’t a big deal. I know this. And yet, if I can bare all and be completely honest, I am still fearful of parenting three young children alone for that long.
There are also a few other significant health problems with family members that I won’t get into right now, but I just wanted to share that my family and I are a bit overwhelmed with all the bad news over the past five months and it would be nice to start receiving some good news, so please pray for that.
However, in all of this, we still have so much to be grateful for. God really does work all things together for the good of those who love Him – I am seeing that even death can be redeemed.
So, if there’s anything you take away from this post, let it be summed up in one word: HOPE. This is not the end. We still have our lives to live, whether it’s one day or many years. And even then, it is not the end. For those of us who have chosen to believe that Jesus died as payment for our sins, and that He was truly God, we have an eternity in Heaven to look forward to.
“Jesus answered, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.’ ” – John 14:6